Over this last week I realized I should be more consistent on when and where I'm journaling the pregnancy. I have papers, emails to myself, notepad, and word, as well as one on my blog. I need to compile them all together. So I think I'm going to find what I have, and compile it in one spot...by the events of this week, I think I'll have time soon to get this all organized and put together.
So without a play by play, that I have written somewhere else...lol...this week we had a complication in the pregnancy, Monday, Keith, Mike, and I spent the evening in the emergency room for bleeding, to have them say they don't know why, sometimes it just happens. Wednesday morning, same issue with the bleeding, so I called the doc's office, and left an urgent message. over 4 hours go by without a call back, so I called to ask them what actually classifies as 'urgent', and after explaining again, I was transferred to the midwife on call right away. I spoke with Michelle and she said that after reviewing the ultrasound again, they determined that I have a complete placenta previa. This is where the placenta is covering the cervix.
So anyways, no bedrest, but pelvic rest. For those of you who don't know what that is...Lifting no more than a gallon of milk, no over doing it and super share...no sex, ok I can handle that...wait a min...WHAT??? No orgasm either? EEK! Apparently these can all trigger contractions, which leads to bleeding which equals bad. :( Let me tell you now, still on the super shares...This was a true test to Keith to see how much that boy loves me. It's not like I couldn't offer services to him...but I was still a bit upset about my restrictions that I hadn't quite come around to accepting what others were allowed to do. He says, "but you promised me a teeter totter" Yup, thats my Keith! This guy is a trooper, my mom gave him props, said he must really love me. :) The feelings is mutual, I guess it just was allowing us to develop other aspects of a relationship.
JUMPING TO TODAY: Anyways, this time has now passed...the previa is completely gone, as well as the restrictions. We have a normal healthy pregnancy. :)
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Feeling good...
Finally out of my 1st trimester, and starting to feel human again. It is really nice to feel good again, and be able to eat normally!
On that note, since I was able to move I decided to go move my body with Becky last week. That was quite the experience! It blew my mind that I use to work out like that, harder than that 3 times a week, sometimes twice a day, and it was 'easy'. Over time I worked myself from 260 lbs to 195 lbs, um yay! That was very exciting and something I was super proud of, what I wasn't so proud of was when I slowly started creeping back up and eventually made it to 230 again. Definitely not proud, it has been hard for me to see anyone that was there for my journey, especially Becky. I was so disappointed in myself for choices I had and was making. On top of being miserable because of the pregnancy, I have been miserable due to the weight gain, clothes not fitting, and just feeling gross again. I don't know how I ever lived complacently like this, it is not the life for me for sure!
So now, here I sit, 224 lbs, 12.5 weeks pregnant, and obviously weight loss is out of the question, but one thing isn't, and that is making healthy decisions, and choosing to move my body everyday. I can't go back to lifting weights and working out like I was (thank god, no burpees) but I can take my dog for a walk, go do cardio, and do some gentler workouts, yes Becky gentler! :)
Obviously, I will be gaining weight, but I am going to make the choice for that to be a healthy weight gain. Now that I'm pregnant, soda isn't an issue for me...however sweets are. eek, so will have to work on that some. I seem to crave fruits and veggies most of all, so I think I can use this to my advantage.
So, here's to a healthy fun pregnancy, and good choices!
On that note, since I was able to move I decided to go move my body with Becky last week. That was quite the experience! It blew my mind that I use to work out like that, harder than that 3 times a week, sometimes twice a day, and it was 'easy'. Over time I worked myself from 260 lbs to 195 lbs, um yay! That was very exciting and something I was super proud of, what I wasn't so proud of was when I slowly started creeping back up and eventually made it to 230 again. Definitely not proud, it has been hard for me to see anyone that was there for my journey, especially Becky. I was so disappointed in myself for choices I had and was making. On top of being miserable because of the pregnancy, I have been miserable due to the weight gain, clothes not fitting, and just feeling gross again. I don't know how I ever lived complacently like this, it is not the life for me for sure!
So now, here I sit, 224 lbs, 12.5 weeks pregnant, and obviously weight loss is out of the question, but one thing isn't, and that is making healthy decisions, and choosing to move my body everyday. I can't go back to lifting weights and working out like I was (thank god, no burpees) but I can take my dog for a walk, go do cardio, and do some gentler workouts, yes Becky gentler! :)
Obviously, I will be gaining weight, but I am going to make the choice for that to be a healthy weight gain. Now that I'm pregnant, soda isn't an issue for me...however sweets are. eek, so will have to work on that some. I seem to crave fruits and veggies most of all, so I think I can use this to my advantage.
So, here's to a healthy fun pregnancy, and good choices!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Probably stuff you already knew...just journalling.
Oh, wow, how far we have come...most everyone knows everything that has been going on, but I want to blog so I have more of a journal of it for myself.
December 24, 2010, I began subcut. injections, and estrogen.
Early January I began Progrestrone Shots.
Estrogen and Progrestrone are what your body naturally produces when you are pregnant. Progrestrone is the fun one, leads to mood swings, weight gain, excessive gas, bloating, exhaustion and nausea.
On January 27th, we implanted the two embryos. What an experience, it was crazy to watch this on the ultrasound, it looked like the dropped two little pearls into my uterus, with an extremely full and painful bladder, then they tipped me slightly upside down. Here is when my body went into shakes a little bit, this is real...this is happening, we just implanted two embryos, in a less than a week I could be pregnant. How crazy is that.
I came home from my appointment to some birthday/thank you flowers from the guys, and I did as doctor ordered, and planted myself on the couch and did nothing!
Waiting was really tough, but I seemed to get nauseous, tender breasts, and somewhat crampy, all signs of your period is coming...or early pregnancy. I'm so excited, everyone's hoping for twins, and as much as the c-sections scare me, I am too. What a blessing that would be for the guys. Really with how nauseous I felt, I felt like it better be twins!
About 4 days before my blood test appointment, Kim peaked my interested and asked if I cheated and bought a pregnancy test, and I hadn't because they said they could show false positive, so I never thought about it till she asked. Well, kinda peaked my interest, so I went and bought two tests. I have never used a defective test, yet somehow both of these tests were. The control line never appeared...WTH! Guess there is someone somewhere just telling me to be patient, and I was.
With or without the tests, I was convinced, there was no way I could possibly feel so miserable without being pregnant, or having the flu. :) Mike emailed me later that day, and told me not to stress about the test, that if it didn't work, we would find another donor, and get the ball rolling again.
So Monday rolls around...blood test #1, comes back positive, Wednesday blood test #2, came back positive, apparently my hCG levels tripled in that amount of time, so looks like maybe multiples.
Our ultrasound is scheduled, and the day comes, and IT SNOWS! What??? I'm so excited, I look outside and it looked well enough to venture out, so we opted to keep our appointment, and went in. Mike joined me for the ultrasound, both of us very ancy to see how many, and get a good healthy heartbeat. Which we did!!! Strong heartbeat, 6 weeks, 3 days, just one baby. It's sad to think the other didn't make it, but whats meant to be, will be. It looked like there was another sac, so maybe the other embryo tried, but didn't quite make it.
Good High five to the new daddy to be, hugs and just anxiously awaiting our next appointment to hear that amazing fetal heartbeat again!
March 21, 2011, is our first prenatal. I am 10 weeks, 3 days along, and should be able to pick up a heartbeat. I got to see Maggie Shaw again, Very exciting to get caught up, but its heartbeat time. I'm anxious, I think we all have some worries when it comes time for that. I found myself looking at the wall, and not able to look at anyone in the room, especially Mike when they couldn't find it. I was really scared of what could be, even though Maggie pre-warned us that there was a good chance we wouldn't be able to hear it. She told me though, that she would just do an ultrasound real quick, and I thank her for not letting Mike, Steven and I live in suspense for a whole week.
She put the ultrasound on, and that little bugger was just flipping and flopping all around, rolling and flailing its arms, what a wonderful sight, and such a great stress reliever.
So now I'm just waiting till my next appointment on April 25th, and in the meantime trying to eat healthy, or at all. I am so nauseous, and exhausted it is really hard to do anything. I am seeing my school work lag behind a bit, and my housework as well. It really just takes everything I have to do laundry. I could sleep all day if possible, and I do when I get the chance to. (Thanks Keith)
Anyways, most of this is things I've told you already, but like I said, its more of just a journal for my reference, something to look back on. To remind myself of this different experience that my family and I get to go on.
December 24, 2010, I began subcut. injections, and estrogen.
Early January I began Progrestrone Shots.
Estrogen and Progrestrone are what your body naturally produces when you are pregnant. Progrestrone is the fun one, leads to mood swings, weight gain, excessive gas, bloating, exhaustion and nausea.
On January 27th, we implanted the two embryos. What an experience, it was crazy to watch this on the ultrasound, it looked like the dropped two little pearls into my uterus, with an extremely full and painful bladder, then they tipped me slightly upside down. Here is when my body went into shakes a little bit, this is real...this is happening, we just implanted two embryos, in a less than a week I could be pregnant. How crazy is that.
I came home from my appointment to some birthday/thank you flowers from the guys, and I did as doctor ordered, and planted myself on the couch and did nothing!
Waiting was really tough, but I seemed to get nauseous, tender breasts, and somewhat crampy, all signs of your period is coming...or early pregnancy. I'm so excited, everyone's hoping for twins, and as much as the c-sections scare me, I am too. What a blessing that would be for the guys. Really with how nauseous I felt, I felt like it better be twins!
About 4 days before my blood test appointment, Kim peaked my interested and asked if I cheated and bought a pregnancy test, and I hadn't because they said they could show false positive, so I never thought about it till she asked. Well, kinda peaked my interest, so I went and bought two tests. I have never used a defective test, yet somehow both of these tests were. The control line never appeared...WTH! Guess there is someone somewhere just telling me to be patient, and I was.
With or without the tests, I was convinced, there was no way I could possibly feel so miserable without being pregnant, or having the flu. :) Mike emailed me later that day, and told me not to stress about the test, that if it didn't work, we would find another donor, and get the ball rolling again.
So Monday rolls around...blood test #1, comes back positive, Wednesday blood test #2, came back positive, apparently my hCG levels tripled in that amount of time, so looks like maybe multiples.
Our ultrasound is scheduled, and the day comes, and IT SNOWS! What??? I'm so excited, I look outside and it looked well enough to venture out, so we opted to keep our appointment, and went in. Mike joined me for the ultrasound, both of us very ancy to see how many, and get a good healthy heartbeat. Which we did!!! Strong heartbeat, 6 weeks, 3 days, just one baby. It's sad to think the other didn't make it, but whats meant to be, will be. It looked like there was another sac, so maybe the other embryo tried, but didn't quite make it.
Good High five to the new daddy to be, hugs and just anxiously awaiting our next appointment to hear that amazing fetal heartbeat again!
March 21, 2011, is our first prenatal. I am 10 weeks, 3 days along, and should be able to pick up a heartbeat. I got to see Maggie Shaw again, Very exciting to get caught up, but its heartbeat time. I'm anxious, I think we all have some worries when it comes time for that. I found myself looking at the wall, and not able to look at anyone in the room, especially Mike when they couldn't find it. I was really scared of what could be, even though Maggie pre-warned us that there was a good chance we wouldn't be able to hear it. She told me though, that she would just do an ultrasound real quick, and I thank her for not letting Mike, Steven and I live in suspense for a whole week.
She put the ultrasound on, and that little bugger was just flipping and flopping all around, rolling and flailing its arms, what a wonderful sight, and such a great stress reliever.
So now I'm just waiting till my next appointment on April 25th, and in the meantime trying to eat healthy, or at all. I am so nauseous, and exhausted it is really hard to do anything. I am seeing my school work lag behind a bit, and my housework as well. It really just takes everything I have to do laundry. I could sleep all day if possible, and I do when I get the chance to. (Thanks Keith)
Anyways, most of this is things I've told you already, but like I said, its more of just a journal for my reference, something to look back on. To remind myself of this different experience that my family and I get to go on.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Just a quick update...
Oh, wow...I was trying to get back in the habit of this, turns out I didn't. I found it much easier to blog when I had my laptop, I really don't like sitting in front of this computer to blog.
Ok, so some major changes in my life are happening, alot, and I am so excited for them all.
First off lets start with some bad news...Fitness, and good choices have taken a back burner in my life...yet again. It is so easy to come up with excuses, or make a mistake and say, "I'll start back up tomorrow." I found with no one to hold myself accountable to I stopped caring, stopped cooking healthy.
So what am I doing about that? We'll I'm making a plan. Visiting Becky once a week, get some good gossiping in as well as a workout, and someone I have to face weekly and say, "Yup, I ate some cookie dough" (Becky if your reading this, I really did) So hopefully, I can get this turned back around and start showing some progress again! It really is easy to do, so I'm not sure why I stopped doing it.
OK, on with the good news, gonna go ahead and save the bestest for last...keep ya reading. :)
I am in school full time, at Pioneer Pacific College, in the Medical Assisting program. So far so good. I have almost all A's, and one B, however their grading system is higher standard, anywhere else I'd have straight A's. Either way, I'm very exicted. I learned to draw blood, learned how the heart works, and wow, that is really amazing. I am super excited and love the environment I am in. At PCC, I didn't understand what I was learning, it just didn't soak in, and here it has, very much so. Right now were learning about the blood and Lymph systems, not nearly as exciting as the heart for me, but it really is amazing. Anyways, my plan with this, is after words, I will attend PCC, and knock out some pre-req's for the nursing program, and eventually make my way there. It might not be right after Pioneer, but this is the overall plan.
Ok, moving on...I am so super excited about this bit. I have been matched with a family, jumped all sorts of medical and physiological hoops, contract signed, and now just waiting for blood to come back, and we are ready to roll on getting PREGNANT!!! Wow, 10-12 years ago, this truly was just a dream to be able to share this experience with a family, and now we are sooo close. I can't wait to get the process started!
Lastly, but bestly!!! I'm getting MARRIED!!! I never really thought I would, but I found him, my best friend, and can't imagine anything better. I know I had my ups and downs and my doubts with him, but they were always for the wrong reasons, my head was always in the clouds, and looking for something that was right in front of me the whole time. We are moving in together, and are ready to pick a date. We decided 2012 will be the year, originally we were thinking next year, but with the surrogacy, I'd rather just wait. Now we are going to sit down and pin down a date. We are only doing this once, so 2012, gives us plenty of time to plan and save for exactly what we want. My ring should be done getting sized, not next Monday, but the following...yay!
Till next time...
Ok, so some major changes in my life are happening, alot, and I am so excited for them all.
First off lets start with some bad news...Fitness, and good choices have taken a back burner in my life...yet again. It is so easy to come up with excuses, or make a mistake and say, "I'll start back up tomorrow." I found with no one to hold myself accountable to I stopped caring, stopped cooking healthy.
So what am I doing about that? We'll I'm making a plan. Visiting Becky once a week, get some good gossiping in as well as a workout, and someone I have to face weekly and say, "Yup, I ate some cookie dough" (Becky if your reading this, I really did) So hopefully, I can get this turned back around and start showing some progress again! It really is easy to do, so I'm not sure why I stopped doing it.
OK, on with the good news, gonna go ahead and save the bestest for last...keep ya reading. :)
I am in school full time, at Pioneer Pacific College, in the Medical Assisting program. So far so good. I have almost all A's, and one B, however their grading system is higher standard, anywhere else I'd have straight A's. Either way, I'm very exicted. I learned to draw blood, learned how the heart works, and wow, that is really amazing. I am super excited and love the environment I am in. At PCC, I didn't understand what I was learning, it just didn't soak in, and here it has, very much so. Right now were learning about the blood and Lymph systems, not nearly as exciting as the heart for me, but it really is amazing. Anyways, my plan with this, is after words, I will attend PCC, and knock out some pre-req's for the nursing program, and eventually make my way there. It might not be right after Pioneer, but this is the overall plan.
Ok, moving on...I am so super excited about this bit. I have been matched with a family, jumped all sorts of medical and physiological hoops, contract signed, and now just waiting for blood to come back, and we are ready to roll on getting PREGNANT!!! Wow, 10-12 years ago, this truly was just a dream to be able to share this experience with a family, and now we are sooo close. I can't wait to get the process started!
Lastly, but bestly!!! I'm getting MARRIED!!! I never really thought I would, but I found him, my best friend, and can't imagine anything better. I know I had my ups and downs and my doubts with him, but they were always for the wrong reasons, my head was always in the clouds, and looking for something that was right in front of me the whole time. We are moving in together, and are ready to pick a date. We decided 2012 will be the year, originally we were thinking next year, but with the surrogacy, I'd rather just wait. Now we are going to sit down and pin down a date. We are only doing this once, so 2012, gives us plenty of time to plan and save for exactly what we want. My ring should be done getting sized, not next Monday, but the following...yay!
Till next time...
Friday, March 26, 2010
oh blog, how I have neglected thee...
wow, it has been awhile, but I feel like the last few months have been a whirl wind, and things are finally settling down again.
Not a whole lot to say, I am getting back into the swing of things, and just wanted to swing in and say I haven't forgotten about you dear sweet blog of mine, I was simply distracted by the finer things in life...boyfriend, kids, holidays, school, friends, and all sorts of goodies.
Hopefully I can get back to blogging on a regular basis, especially since I've had requests, mostly to monitor how I was doing on my weight loss.
Well here it goes...
I'd love to say I plateaued, but I didn't, but really it came down to bad choices. That's it. 1 chocolate chip cookie lead to many, which lead to some cake, which lead to oh well, screw it I love food, and was eating crap. I gained a few pounds, not much, but enough to be uncomfortable, enough that my clothes were uncomfortable, and for the first time on this journey I bought clothes to cater to the now, I bought a 14 instead of the 12...ugh! I also became a huge fan of hoodies, ya they are comfy and I will wear them, but I was beginning to wear them because I wanted to hide what little I'd gained back. bad, bad, bad!!! Then I read an article, I don't remember where, but it specifically said to wear your snug clothes, it will motivate you to fit them correctly...oh and that article is oh so right!
Now I am working hard, and back on track. Making better choices, writing in my food journal, and just in general making good choices, I vowed to not be a calorie counter in the begininning of my journey, but I'm finding it helpful in making better choices, and learning what I can eliminate from meals to make the better choices. I try to eat clean, but again, I love food, and there are a few things that I am just a big fan of. I am planning ahead for those times where I know my choices might not be the best, like tonight hanging with the bfff, I bought us a yummy snack, but I will say, it has been sitting in my fridge for a few days untouched, I didn't touch a lick of my kids Easter candy as I was preparing their baskets, and in general distracted myself from some nasty cravings.
As far as working out, I am going back to see Becky every other week, and will create workouts for myself on the other weeks, this will ease me into creating my routines, while keeping my motivation up.
Gonna talk to Becky and see if I can get a pinch and see where I am at so I can monitor as I move forward. I will defintely share my results with everyone.
Have a fantastic day!
Brandini~
Not a whole lot to say, I am getting back into the swing of things, and just wanted to swing in and say I haven't forgotten about you dear sweet blog of mine, I was simply distracted by the finer things in life...boyfriend, kids, holidays, school, friends, and all sorts of goodies.
Hopefully I can get back to blogging on a regular basis, especially since I've had requests, mostly to monitor how I was doing on my weight loss.
Well here it goes...
I'd love to say I plateaued, but I didn't, but really it came down to bad choices. That's it. 1 chocolate chip cookie lead to many, which lead to some cake, which lead to oh well, screw it I love food, and was eating crap. I gained a few pounds, not much, but enough to be uncomfortable, enough that my clothes were uncomfortable, and for the first time on this journey I bought clothes to cater to the now, I bought a 14 instead of the 12...ugh! I also became a huge fan of hoodies, ya they are comfy and I will wear them, but I was beginning to wear them because I wanted to hide what little I'd gained back. bad, bad, bad!!! Then I read an article, I don't remember where, but it specifically said to wear your snug clothes, it will motivate you to fit them correctly...oh and that article is oh so right!
Now I am working hard, and back on track. Making better choices, writing in my food journal, and just in general making good choices, I vowed to not be a calorie counter in the begininning of my journey, but I'm finding it helpful in making better choices, and learning what I can eliminate from meals to make the better choices. I try to eat clean, but again, I love food, and there are a few things that I am just a big fan of. I am planning ahead for those times where I know my choices might not be the best, like tonight hanging with the bfff, I bought us a yummy snack, but I will say, it has been sitting in my fridge for a few days untouched, I didn't touch a lick of my kids Easter candy as I was preparing their baskets, and in general distracted myself from some nasty cravings.
As far as working out, I am going back to see Becky every other week, and will create workouts for myself on the other weeks, this will ease me into creating my routines, while keeping my motivation up.
Gonna talk to Becky and see if I can get a pinch and see where I am at so I can monitor as I move forward. I will defintely share my results with everyone.
Have a fantastic day!
Brandini~
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
My life is very crazy and busy, but I love it that way.
Wow life is crazy...
I have been working and going to school full time, take care of three kids, maintain a schedule at the gym, and what ever else gets thrown my way. I am so overwhelmed right now...ACK, but the term is coming to an end, and I don't wanna jump the gun yet, cause I don't know if I have passed one of my classes, but I did it! 1 term down, too many more to go. :) Passed math with an "A" and Computers with a "B". My guess is a C to maybe even a B in writing, I'm happy as long as I pass.
Next term I'm back at it again Math, Public Speaking, and Writing again. I was torn between taking a class I wanted to take or the Writing 122, but I'm gonna get the crap out of the way now so I don't have to stress on it later. I am very nervous about both Writing 122, and the public speaking. Eek, we will see how this goes, I may need to use you as an audience, so yay, you can participate too.
As far as the gym, my progress definitely is not what it was the last go round, but the important part is I am going down, and toning up. Last night I found a list of goals that I had written myself, and as reading over them, I realized I didn't come close to accomplishing any of them, or really even starting on them. Tonight, I am going to create something to put on my door so these goals are somewhere I see them everyday, and I can't put off till 'tomorrow'. I know with school this term the program kinda got pushed to the back burner. They are both very important to me, they both require my time, I just need to learn to balance gym, work, kids, and school. I know it can be done, and I'm hoping that during my winter break I can get a bit more organized and set my self up for success in all of these departments.
I am at a point now, where I think I should leave the group. I'm scared to leave, but thinkmaybe I should try, 1 for financial reasons, and 2, because sooner or later I am going to have to do it on my own. So plan of action now, is to finish out the 16 weeks (thank you Keith) and maybe venture out to learn how to do this on my own. I am confident I can continue to lose and get in shape, I think that I have a good support system, and plenty of people willing to help...Thank you all!
Kid life has been good. Kids obviously are so excited for Christmas, Aiden is really excited about all the lights, loved meeting Santa, and he wants a train, that's all just a train. Easy enough. Aaron and Marissa, are really excited to go to Glama's house for Christmas, and so am I!!! 16 more days!!!
Last week I went to a story reading with Marissa at her school, she read a story she wrote. She really does have an amazing writing voice, and I got to hear it, it was incredible! I am very proud of her!!!
Aaron had his first viola concert last night. Unfortunately Heath and I had what we thought would be prime seating, however the conductor (is that what they are called) was standing directly in our line of sight the whole time. Either way, I was very proud of him, he was so nervous. He has another concert this Friday at his school that I look forward to attending, and recording. I'll post it online when I have a chance.
Anyways, someone asked me last week to keep up on the Blog, so there ya have it, my life in a nutshell right now...
Lots of love~
I have been working and going to school full time, take care of three kids, maintain a schedule at the gym, and what ever else gets thrown my way. I am so overwhelmed right now...ACK, but the term is coming to an end, and I don't wanna jump the gun yet, cause I don't know if I have passed one of my classes, but I did it! 1 term down, too many more to go. :) Passed math with an "A" and Computers with a "B". My guess is a C to maybe even a B in writing, I'm happy as long as I pass.
Next term I'm back at it again Math, Public Speaking, and Writing again. I was torn between taking a class I wanted to take or the Writing 122, but I'm gonna get the crap out of the way now so I don't have to stress on it later. I am very nervous about both Writing 122, and the public speaking. Eek, we will see how this goes, I may need to use you as an audience, so yay, you can participate too.
As far as the gym, my progress definitely is not what it was the last go round, but the important part is I am going down, and toning up. Last night I found a list of goals that I had written myself, and as reading over them, I realized I didn't come close to accomplishing any of them, or really even starting on them. Tonight, I am going to create something to put on my door so these goals are somewhere I see them everyday, and I can't put off till 'tomorrow'. I know with school this term the program kinda got pushed to the back burner. They are both very important to me, they both require my time, I just need to learn to balance gym, work, kids, and school. I know it can be done, and I'm hoping that during my winter break I can get a bit more organized and set my self up for success in all of these departments.
I am at a point now, where I think I should leave the group. I'm scared to leave, but thinkmaybe I should try, 1 for financial reasons, and 2, because sooner or later I am going to have to do it on my own. So plan of action now, is to finish out the 16 weeks (thank you Keith) and maybe venture out to learn how to do this on my own. I am confident I can continue to lose and get in shape, I think that I have a good support system, and plenty of people willing to help...Thank you all!
Kid life has been good. Kids obviously are so excited for Christmas, Aiden is really excited about all the lights, loved meeting Santa, and he wants a train, that's all just a train. Easy enough. Aaron and Marissa, are really excited to go to Glama's house for Christmas, and so am I!!! 16 more days!!!
Last week I went to a story reading with Marissa at her school, she read a story she wrote. She really does have an amazing writing voice, and I got to hear it, it was incredible! I am very proud of her!!!
Aaron had his first viola concert last night. Unfortunately Heath and I had what we thought would be prime seating, however the conductor (is that what they are called) was standing directly in our line of sight the whole time. Either way, I was very proud of him, he was so nervous. He has another concert this Friday at his school that I look forward to attending, and recording. I'll post it online when I have a chance.
Anyways, someone asked me last week to keep up on the Blog, so there ya have it, my life in a nutshell right now...
Lots of love~
Monday, November 16, 2009
Don't know where I wondered off to, but I'm ready to come back home...
I feel like the last month or month and a half have been crazy, between work, kids, school, the gym, and what little of a personal life I have anymore. I feel like somewhere in here I have lost me, what my overall goals are, and what I need to achieve them.
Overall I am happy, very much so, but there are a few things that need some tweaking. School, needs to jump back up on my priority list. I have let this fall behind, and I was struggling with it before hand. The gym, I don't know what came and kicked me in my ass, but something did. It seems to have left me stopped dead in my tracks. It's like I almost quit trying, and there have been days where I think, "Why am I doing this?", and remember that is the wrong attitude to have. I spent my weekend thinking of what it could be, personally I think my personal life is what was dragging me down, I feel like right now that I am not in a place that I want to be, I am doing things that make others happy, and not myself, and its taking a toll on everything. Then yesterday two people mentioned that they were proud of me, and that hit me, that just revved me up. I am ready to go kick some ass again.
I've got my journal back out, got my plan in my head, just getting all those pieces back to where they need to be. I know that I can do anything I put my mind to.
We started a new Human Billboard Class approximately 4 weeks ago, we have lost some people, and gained some new in this new group of people, I am definitely missing the ones that didn't come back, Margaret, so quiet and cute, and Kevin was just a lot of fun to have around. I am having more great times with the ones that stayed, Glen, Tracy, Caroline, Linda, and loving the new crew. One in particular I think is going to be a blast to work with. She too, is loud mouth, determined, and just in general seems like a fun one to 'play' with. I look forward to many more weeks working out with her!
So here we go again, about 4 weeks too late into the the start of the new program, but better late than never. The last time I posted this was June 30th, and I am posting it again:
"I want to say that I apologize if starts to consume me, but I won't. This is what I have wanted and this is what I need. I have an addictive personality, and I'm hoping this is where it can shine threw and help me out...
So please be a friend, be supportive
Thank you all!!!
The Great Brandini~"
For those of you who don't know, last Saturday Becky, Aaron, Marissa, and I all participated in the 'Dirdy Birdy' race. It is Portland's muddiest 5k. Below are some pics of the event. I can't wait till next year to do it again, this was soo much fun!
Overall I am happy, very much so, but there are a few things that need some tweaking. School, needs to jump back up on my priority list. I have let this fall behind, and I was struggling with it before hand. The gym, I don't know what came and kicked me in my ass, but something did. It seems to have left me stopped dead in my tracks. It's like I almost quit trying, and there have been days where I think, "Why am I doing this?", and remember that is the wrong attitude to have. I spent my weekend thinking of what it could be, personally I think my personal life is what was dragging me down, I feel like right now that I am not in a place that I want to be, I am doing things that make others happy, and not myself, and its taking a toll on everything. Then yesterday two people mentioned that they were proud of me, and that hit me, that just revved me up. I am ready to go kick some ass again.
I've got my journal back out, got my plan in my head, just getting all those pieces back to where they need to be. I know that I can do anything I put my mind to.
We started a new Human Billboard Class approximately 4 weeks ago, we have lost some people, and gained some new in this new group of people, I am definitely missing the ones that didn't come back, Margaret, so quiet and cute, and Kevin was just a lot of fun to have around. I am having more great times with the ones that stayed, Glen, Tracy, Caroline, Linda, and loving the new crew. One in particular I think is going to be a blast to work with. She too, is loud mouth, determined, and just in general seems like a fun one to 'play' with. I look forward to many more weeks working out with her!
So here we go again, about 4 weeks too late into the the start of the new program, but better late than never. The last time I posted this was June 30th, and I am posting it again:
"I want to say that I apologize if starts to consume me, but I won't. This is what I have wanted and this is what I need. I have an addictive personality, and I'm hoping this is where it can shine threw and help me out...
So please be a friend, be supportive
Thank you all!!!
The Great Brandini~"
For those of you who don't know, last Saturday Becky, Aaron, Marissa, and I all participated in the 'Dirdy Birdy' race. It is Portland's muddiest 5k. Below are some pics of the event. I can't wait till next year to do it again, this was soo much fun!
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